Saturday was scary. But I learned something about my self. I have learned to control everything around me. I make sure that everything is always under control. I make sure everyone sees me as in control.
And I never let anyone see me slip or fail. Mainly so no one sees what’s really going on inside. Saturday was the most I’ve ever been out of control of my body. And I could do nothing to stop it. I didn’t even have something trapped in it with me. Blah